Friday, September 26, 2008

"Where is she?"

"Have you talked to them lately?" "Yea sure why?" "Well i haven't seen them in a few weeks, I was just wondering if everything was ok." "Well....they got kicked out again." "What? Are u serious? When did this happen?" "Just a couple of weeks ago." "Well do you know where they are? Why did they get kicked out?" "I dont know."

"I can't believe it, again? Why oh why oh why. What in the world could she and her sister have done? So many questions are running throughout my head right now it's crazy. I should have known once i went a week without seeing her. We've been hanging out so much lately, it was beautiful, but then this happens. Where could she be, maybe down south again like last time, so far away. I hope she's alright. I wonder how long she is going to stay down there, hopefully not as long as last time. I miss her. I can't stop freakin thinking about her. She knows how I feel about her. I told her that in a conversation that we once had. Ever since then it's been so good, and now this. I wish i could have atleast seen her before hand, just to say goodbye, but wait. I can see her again. Thats right, she told me the last time i saw her! Next thursday, the night she is supposed to do it. She told me herself, the week of the 22nd. Hopefully she is still supposed to do it, i hope so."

"So you talked to her mother today?" "Yea I did. I asked her if her daughter would still be doing it on thurday and she said yea. I told her that my family and I would come by to hear her do it and she said she would let her know." "Wow, well thats interesting, i thought she was kicked out along with her sister?" "Yea i kno, i was thinking the same thing. I hope she will actualy be there you kno. I would be kinda upset if she wasnt and, you know, her mother just told me should would be." "Yea i know what ya mean. That would be pretty bogus." "Yea, well lets just hope."

"Tonights the night. Tonights the night she is supposed to give her performance. I wore a suit to school yesterday, and I looked real fly, I'll just wear that same suit again. My sister and I pulled up, parked the car, and walked in and I knew right away what was happening, I just don't think I was willing to accept it yet. We walked to the front and sat down right infront of the stage. All the while i was thinking, well maybe she's in the bathroom or something, or maybe she's in the back practicing or something. Her mother said she would be here, i believe her. After a few minutes my parents walk in and sit right beside my sister and I. Now my heart begins to beat harder. I really hope this is all going to happen now, even my parents came to hear. My sister turns to me and asks, "Where is she?" and I dont know. Her turn comes up, and i watch her mother and her grandmother walk onto the stage. All I could think to myself was I knew it. I can't believe this. How could her mother sit there and tell me right to my face that she would be here tonight. I knew deep down inside that she probably wouldnt be, but i just did not want to believe it. I thought just by some chance, just maybe she would be here, and i could see her for that one last time before she gets sent away. Away out of my reach, where i cant contact her, i cant find out how she is or how shes doing. Where we can't even speak to each other. My palms sweat heavily, all i could do is look down in disgrace. My parents asking "Where is she?" I felt played, mislead, sent-off, stupid off all things. My sister taps my arm and says "I am so sorry." All I can do is just sit there and think. I can't believe this."

"After its all over my friends try to cheer me up." "Its allright man, she'll be back." "Well how can we know that, we can't even speak to eachother." Her mother walks past, and just looks at me, doesnt wave, doesnt say im sorry, doesnt say anything. She just walks and looks. All i can continuously think is "Where could she be....Where is she"

8 comments:

Im DeVarion. Dont confuse other people with me, Deje. said...
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mbrown8625 said...

just wanted to say that I love that you use the blog for both academic writing and to 'vent'. I do appreciate that!

SIMPLY SHE.... said...

okay,.... i read it

and umm


WHERE IS SHE???

Cody Wilson said...

I dont know, thats the point of it all lol

The Young Poet/Writer said...

wow...thats some deep thinkin..i can relate to ur pain...everyday i go thinkin where is she yet she is me!...just keep a positive attitude and things will be ok!

p.s...i really like!

English Nerd;P said...

CODY THAT'S BEAUTIFUL YOU JUST GAVE ME AN IDEA

Anonymous said...

cody i know where she is..... she went to Narnia 2 get away from u and ur whining,... im sorry cody but its the truth. u may b wondering how i know this, well, i went with her. im sorry ..... please forgive me my friend..... ................................................................................okay u got im not sorry

real talk, that was some deep "BLEEP".... i didnt know that all that stuff happened with her, o and i got a question, are u supposed to be talkn 2 Summer in this story?


im sorry 4 this long stupid comment also, i could of just said all of this in like 5 seconds.... im really sorry

Cody Wilson said...

Lol, no i wasnt talking to summer, one of my other friends. And yea all that happened unfortunately.